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Post by ranman77007 on May 4, 2010 4:23:36 GMT -6
Maybe someone would copy and paste this message to the TMB Admin team or post it on the TMB... which ever would be the right way to do it...
I would like to invite the moderators of the TMB, and the Admin of the TMB, and also anyone they choose, to come to the Cafe and talk to me, maybe they would consider it a "parole hearing", or something like that...
I think it would be nice... Couldn't hurt to just come talk to me, could it?
Well, thanks for listening...
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Post by ranman77007 on May 4, 2010 12:22:58 GMT -6
One thing is for sure. There isn't much chance of reconciliation without two way communication.
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Post by ranman unplugged on May 4, 2010 19:08:15 GMT -6
Well, it's probably too late anyway. After so long a time, they would never feel comfortable with me anyway, I suppose... I suppose it would be very hard for everyone involved to humble their pride...
...and I never was much into talking about some church all the time, and can't really understand why ANYONE would...
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Post by ranman77007 on May 5, 2010 3:38:23 GMT -6
The pic above is a snapshot of my computer screen. It's a pic of the TMB... In order to see the option to view members by letter, you have to be logged in there... So I have been a member for just not quite a year since my last attempt was banned... that's a pretty long survival rate for someone who causes non stop trouble and who will never change...
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Post by ranman77007 on May 5, 2010 4:12:51 GMT -6
Also, for the record, this will be my last apology for the things that I said years ago about a few TMB members. I was wrong, and I am sorry. I haven't done it since, here or anywhere else.
I am sorry for the way I acted, but I can't go on apologizing and apologizing... enough is enough... I am tired...
I offer my hand in peace. It's all that I know how to do.
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Post by me again on May 13, 2010 17:22:21 GMT -6
Thanks Randy. We do think of you often xo
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Post by ranman77007 on May 25, 2010 4:25:22 GMT -6
Thanks! You know what? I was just now watching an old episode of Happy Days on YouTube... it was the one where Ralph Malph accidentally destroyed Fonzie's motorcycle... Well, the Cunningham's had Fonzie tied up (Joanie's magic trick..lol), so that Ralph could confess to him safely... But Fonzie tried to get at him anyway... right now I am still watching... they untied Fonzie and are going to let him go... But then Mr. C said something that made me think of the TMB... maybe I am being judgmental... probably I am, knowing me (I do everything wrong)... but as far as the truth, I can claim that... Anyway, what Mr. C said to Fonzie was not even his words. It was an old quote by Shakespeare: "To err is human. To forgive is divine." And that is true... Where did Shakespeare ever come up with such a brilliant and profound phrase? I don't know, but it's pretty cool... and rings with greatness today, IMO, just almost exactly 400 years later... Sometimes they just need a bad guy, even when there isn't any... I volunteered for it, I guess... Well, I was just saying what the episode made me think of... I am going to go watch the rest of it now... Do you think Fonzie should forgive him? After all, Ralph tried to hide a piece of the motorcycle in the mailbox, and he lied about the whole thing... But they say Fonzie is cool... we'll see...
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Post by me again on May 28, 2010 0:25:11 GMT -6
Hmmm dunno Randy. When someone says sorry... yet they go and do the same actions that required the "sorry" again and again... with seemingly no remorse for at least quite a few days... and the consequences of this persons actions were far reaching and affected more than just that one person, would you allow that same person access to be able to cause the same harm after numerous "time outs"?
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Post by ranman77007 on May 28, 2010 22:41:47 GMT -6
You know I have seen the board, so I know the kind of real hurting that goes on there... And yeah, I suppose after 2 years and considering that I am there now anyway, and have proven myself as far as I have been given the opportunity to do so, I would have to say yes... But I am a pretty forgiving person... It's not like they couldn't ban me again... It's been what, 2 years? I have been there as a registered member all this time.. I would say yes... because there is another point to consider. Back at the time I posted as ranman, I made no promises to anyone, and was very frank about that to the entire board. But now I have. And when I say that I will do something, I do it. Simple as that, and I know this, and the people that know me know this. And quite a few people at the TMB know me enough to know that this is true. Even when I professed, I was honest with God that I could not promise that I could submit to His will to fit in (with the 2x2s), that it was not in me to do it, that He would have to cause my nature to change, do all the work. I was already wiped out at the time. I couldn't do anything on my own. I even asked God to promise not to let me fall away. I have never been dishonest with God, he already knows everything about me. If I say I will do something, I do it. I know when I make a promise, I keep it. Even if they wanted me to, I could never again act like I used to on the TMB. That's just the way I am. I do that to keep my own integrity, and peace within. And I don't remember say "sorry" again and again until quite a bit after it was all over... when I realized that the people there were so fragile and that I had hurt them, so I am not sure where you came up with that.
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Post by ranman77007 on May 31, 2010 1:55:15 GMT -6
I just thought of something... I did used to apologize to certain people when they pushed my buttons on purpose and I would react... I remember apologizing to Rational when I snapped at him when he was just trying to help with my tooth pain...
Sure, I apologized... I used to go to the extra length to "take wrong", as Jesus put it... I did this with Ilylo on many occasions, but I never could get him to be my friend. I don't think he is there anymore. I do know that if you long into TheLyingTruth from my house, from my ip address, it displays a big picture of me, which I don't know where he got, maybe MySpace. And it ties up my PC so I have to CtrlAltDelete... to this day...
So I can see where you heard me say "sorry" many times, usually to him, I think... and I do suppose that subliminally, when remembering back, it might cause you to think that I was the worse of the two of us. After all, if he never apologized for anything, then he must not have ever done anything to apologize for... to bad that that is just an illusion of the mind, because it still works...
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Post by ranman77007 on Jun 1, 2010 3:17:56 GMT -6
Do you think that they still think that I have an "agenda" there? I don't. People get accused of having agendas there quite often is why I wonder... I think the word "agenda" can sometimes fill more than it's needed place in the thoughts of a person... They could at least come out and tell me face to face whether I will ever be allowed there again...
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Post by me again on Jun 2, 2010 0:23:59 GMT -6
Hmmm gee Randy. I dunno hey. My guess is that it's not because of an agenda... but rather than you got out of your own self-control with your posting more than just once or twice. Do YOU think you'd be able to control your urges there??
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Post by ranman77007 on Jun 2, 2010 3:20:30 GMT -6
Yes. I read the board all the time, and I could post right now if I chose to. And to be honest, I probably wouldn't post much if I was allowed to... Since that time I have joined many other forums, and you know what? They all have stricter rules than the TMB has today. I have learned to adapt. I am sure there must be forums out there where it is all fightin' and cussin', but those are not the forums that I get drawn to... I admit that I wouldn't be one to post on most of the subjects at the TMB. I see much of it as fruitless. What Calvin did for Calvinism however many hundred years ago does not really interest me, and neither does chatting about the 2x2 "dress code"... The real Jesus interests me, but getting involved in a discussion about who is saved or who has access to the Holy Spirit doesn't. I would be more interested in discussions about the characters in the bible, and the experiences that I have had that were word for word the same as experiences they had, and how these things happened to me before I even knew or had read about them... to me that is the real power of the Spirit... I don't see much of that over there... But it is nice to be over there among folks that I can understand, whether exes or professing, I can relate to both, and see that we all come from the same pot of soup, and it helps... I would probably keep to the Secular Board most of the time, unless I felt needed "up top"... There is no way that I would go off like I did back in the day... I'd still try to be clever, and funny though, if I could... puts a twinkle in the eye. Either way, I would like to know once and for all if they ever intend to let me back. It would only take a second for the admin to come here and tell me if I am wasting my time waiting for them.
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Post by ranman77007 on Jun 2, 2010 23:45:50 GMT -6
Let me go off topic for a second... The post by me that Scott Ross posted on the oil spill could just as easily have been posted on the Secular Board, had the oil spill thread been posted there... I suppose since it was big news, someone thought they'd turn it into a religious thread so they could have a "popular thread"... but the point is that it was a secular board topic, and that's where I would have posted, but it just happened to be on the main board, so I threw in my little funny about God soaking the world with oil before He strikes that final match...
Just tryin' to fit in! ;D
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Post by ranman77007 on Jun 15, 2010 19:26:59 GMT -6
Today I am just saying hi!
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